The Realisation
One minute I was flying high thinking I was going to be successful, offering high quality workshops to budding local songwriters. Everyone said it was needed and a good idea.
The next moment I was facing cancelling workshops. It was a hard few days of soul searching to admit that I had not succeeded in attracting attention.
The Decision
But the moment came and I made the hard decision to stop fighting the tide and to go with it. The people I thought would be disappointed in me all agreed it was the right decision. They supported me not the thing I was doing.
Almost instantly I felt a huge weight lift off my shoulders. I then knew I was the one putting all the pressure on myself.
Moving Forward
One of the best bits of advice I was given was – it is alright to mourn your efforts. To take time to allow the feelings to pass. The amazing thing is that I didn’t realise that I was feeling all these emotions until someone said. Then the floodgates opened. I have taken a couple of days out and just gone back to playing my guitar for no real purpose other than the enjoyment of it.
Doors close, Doors Open
The crazy thing is that without doing anything doors have opened and ones that I wouldn’t have been able to consider if I had continued with my battle to win.
I can’t wait to get into these new projects. One has been on the back burner for around 6 months and just became a reality this weekend.
Watch this space for more to come.
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